Friday, June 13, 2008

And the Wait Goes On

So anyone in the adoption world understands what it is like to wait.  So here we are waiting. Our dossier has been at the MFA since the end of April and we think YEA! We are finally getting somewhere...and then we wait.  We knew this going in and so with steely resolve we keep looking forward and counting each day that passes as being one less day we have to wait, but all the brave talk and resolve doesn't make this inevitable part of the process easier.  Friends that were pregnant when we started the process are now sporting the seasons latest in accessories, one year olds or very near, even those that got pregnant after the we started the process are nearing their delivery dates.  A friend of mine recently joked with us that they would feel really bad if they had their second one before we even got our first one!  It was not insensitive of her, she helps keep things light and is very supportive.  In fact, this week as I have read blogs about more delays here, longer waits there, I was really feeling down.  My friend didn't know this, but when we went to their house the other evening she says, "I got you something" and pulls out this book, "A Treasury of Adoption Miracles".  It touched me that she had picked it up for us, but what was even greater about it was how timely it was, just when I needed something to pick me up, to reassure me in our direction, her she hands me a book.  On the back cover it says, "No matter what struggles you're going through, no matter how many highs and lows, the truth is, adoption is God's handiwork.  It is a blessing, a calling, an absolute divine doing...Let God show you again the miracle of a child and the special miracle of adoption."  This is a high calling and worthy of all the effort. As the old saying goes, nothing worth doing is ever easy.  So here we are, waiting, wondering, hoping and always praying.  

As we near the end of the month of June Jeff and I will celebrate 5 years of marriage together.  It has been an adventure and yet doesn't seem like we have been married for that long (I know 5 years is a drop in the bucket for some!!  One day it will be for us!).  I can't think of a better anniversary gift than to hear that our paperwork has moved on to the next step, but I won't count on that just like I won't count on getting flowers from Jeff and if it happens it will be a very pleasant surprise!  Until next time!  Paka!